I’ve been wondering what to write in my blog all week, and it wasn’t until moments ago – when writing a comment for an assignment – that I thought “This is what I’ve got to share!”
We’ve been contemplating Anger, Fear, Guilt, Hurt Feelings, and Unworthiness as “Tools for Expanding” for the past two weeks. We’ve also made a practice of asking ourselves, “What am I pretending not to know?” and “What would the person I intend to become do next?” Below is what I wrote as my assignment, and is basically a cut and paste with a couple of changes for clarity.
Fear… What am I pretending not to know?
I’m pretending not to know that all fear, beyond those of falling and loud (startling) noises, is learned; and many (most?) of our fears today are irrational and not based in fact.
I’m personally pretending not to fear “failure,” however – so far – the fear of ‘trying and failing’ has paralyzed my efforts in creating a successful network marketing business. I have not reached my goals (yet!), and have “justified” that by telling myself “Of course you haven’t reached your goals yet… You haven’t even tried!” And, until now I’ve pretended not to know I am failing by simply not starting in earnest.
Strangely enough, I have literally succeeded in everything I have set my mind to accomplish in life so far, and I have sought out many challenges over the years which should fill me with tremendous confidence today… However, it literally wasn’t until the moment I typed out that last sentence that my heart said, “That’s why you fear failing now!”
Something inside me has been saying, “If you try nothing else in life, you can walk away a winner,” but I know nothing could be further from the truth! I may no longer be a spring chicken, but I believe I’ve got decades of living still ahead of me and I’m not about to lay down and “play dead” just yet, to avoid potential embarrassment. That’s not even considering the tremendous benefit I – and those around me – will gain by me actually trying and succeeding!
You’ve all just been witness to, and participants in, an epiphany in my Hero’s Journey. Thanks, and blessings to you all!